This is the kind of night that many of my nights felt like as a teenager. Quiet, but with so much going on outside of me that I’m not a part of. My roommates seem busy and have curled up in their room watching TV and playing video games and James is sitting at the desk that is comically small for him, hunched over his computer, trying to focus on schoolwork. So, I found myself lighting a candle, pouring a glass of whiskey, putting on some lo-fi, and opening a book. A common teenage r[...]
“Darling, just fucking own it.” These words are engraved on a bracelet my roommate gave me for Christmas. If I could choose any words to sum up the close of 2017, it would be these. As another year ends, I can’t help but think about how exhausted I am. I know, I’m supposed to say how great the year was or how I can’t wait for the next year to come because it’s going to be full of so many good things. And those things are true, most definitely. A lot of 2017 was amazing (I went on li[...]
It’s been two years since I started this blog, and time has managed to fly and stand completely still, in the way that only time can. As I sat on a woven mat covered in dirt in the middle of the desert, shivering in the cold, I wondered why I was there at all. I mean, I knew why I was there - it was my friend’s 21st birthday celebration and we were at the RiSE festival - but as the speaker called to the audience to write what they felt on paper lanterns, my head froze. So many thoughts reel[...]
I've been trying to write something for a week or two now, but haven't been able to find the most graceful way to say it. I’ve written draft after draft of the same story, hoping that my bitterness and anger would eventually fade out of the narrative and leave something witty, poignant, and sharp. After a few drafts, I gave up hope for a bit and decided maybe I just needed time. If you’ve been around me or seen me on social media the last few days, you’ve probably heard me talking about th[...]