This is the kind of night that many of my nights felt like as a teenager. Quiet, but with so much going on outside of me that I’m not a part of. My roommates seem busy and have curled up in their room watching TV and playing video games and James is sitting at the desk that is comically small for him, hunched over his computer, trying to focus on schoolwork. So, I found myself lighting a candle, pouring a glass of whiskey, putting on some lo-fi, and opening a book. A common teenage r[...]
As a kid growing up in the church, I learned early on that the solution to any problem could be found with prayer and petition, reading the Bible, and having enough faith. As a teenager struggling with anxiety, an emotionally abusive boyfriend, my parents’ divorce and a ton of school work, I struggled to see how I could be doing everything right and still feel so anxious all of the time. I was convinced I was doing something wrong. And then came college. My anxiety waned and rose, seemed to ru[...]